A friend! I know, big deal. Well it is to me. I don't "friend" well. I have a hard time establishing that type of relationship with someone. I am often self-conscious, thinking I will say or do something that will greatly offend the potential friend; therefore, I am never comfortable in my own skin when I'm around the prospect. So eventually, I bail.
My baby brother is very outgoing, extroverted, has never (and I do mean NEVER) met a stranger. My mother is the same way. Come to think of it, most of my family is like this. So WTF is wrong with me?!?! I have no idea. I do know that I tend to isolate myself. My mother once called me a social ninny; I have to remember the day to day niceties, the good manners, and general proper social behavior. I literally force myself to interact with others at work related functions or other socials. I definitely would not make a good salesman! LOL!
So my friend's name is Stephanie. In a lot of ways, I could describe her as my polar opposite. Just some examples...she's very polite, I sometimes forget the pleasantries and come off as rude to some people...
she's very bubbly & outgoing, I'm more introverted...she seems very innocent & uncorrupted by the world's evils, I have done things that the Devil himself hasn't thought of doing...I could list more, but that paints the general picture.
So why Stephanie? If we are so different, how could we be friends? I believe the fact that we are so different allows us to be friends. I don't have to prove anything to her. I don't worry about offending her with some of the things that come out of my mouth (I have an affinity for profanity). I feel very comfortable around Steph (yeah, we're tight like that, I can call her by her nickname). I don't have this overwhelming urge to impress her. We don't work together, so I don't have to prove my worth or "match" her in any way. I thoroughly enjoy spending time with her...I wish I had more time to spend with her.
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