...but I have terribly neglected my blog. So many times a month, or a week, or even a day, I think "man, I should put that on my blog." But I never do. Instead, I make up excuses and come up with a million different "if only" reasons for not doing what ultimately makes me feel better, free, accomplished.
My purpose for the blog was never to publish life-altering stories of inspiration and encouragement, to win over people with amazing recipes or scrapbooking ideas. It was and always has been a cathartic outlet. When I see my overwhelming, heart-breaking, "insurmountable" problems in black and white, they somehow see less ominous, less threatening and then I feel less abnormal. So why don't I do it? The truth...I'm a masochist. I guess I don't believe I deserve to be happy, to have a normal existence (whatever THAT is). What is wrong with me?!?!? LOL. My life is full and wonderful and I somehow, I find a way NOT to enjoy it. sheesh. Well, maybe I'll do a little better, both with the blog and my outlook. :D
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